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I’m sick of pretending to be happy…
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Anonymous asked:
People like you are fucking stupid, you moan about wanting to die and how you hate your life all the time, all over here! Just fucking do it, no one will miss you, I'm sure once your gone there will be room for another blog, which will actually be worth reading, maybe someone who can become tumblr famous! Go and die, jump you stupid little ugly whore

Maybe no one will miss me… But you should be ashamed of yourself



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I have this feeling inside me, it feels like a knot or something, something that’s getting bigger and bigger or tighter maybe, I think its anger, maybe.. I don’t know what it is but I want it to go away


I know I haven’t posted in a long long time but…

A lot has happened lately, I’ve stopped cutting, and instead… I eat, I was told by my councillor to stop cutting, so I tried and even though I still bite my arms sometimes, I don’t cut… 

But… everyone thinks cutting is really bad, when in reality, IT IS NOT!
I eat now, I binge and then I feel a lot worse, I hate my body a lot more because I’ve put on weight and I just need to cut!

I fucking hate this! I make no sense but I just fucking hate it!

:( 


A part of me wants someone to know I’m cutting…

But I know if my mum knew she’d just go through my whole room and remove anything I could use to harm myself and then say nothing of it… 
She wouldn’t understand, I mean how could I expect her to? 


I feel like I’m trapped.

Trapped in this depression but mainly trapped in my life, I feel like I don’t belong in my family, I feel like I should be someone else and It’s so weird I can’t even begin to explain it, I’ve always had feelings of not fitting in but it’s getting too much for me. 
I feel like I have so much to express and I can’t express it, no one around me can relate to me, I feel like I belong in a different family, a more intelligent one.

Uchhh I don’t know :( 

I just want all this to go away, I want to die. 




Anonymous asked:
do you see anyone for your problems? do your parents know?

I see a councilor but she always lets me down by rearranging and the appointments aren’t regular because she’s so busy… & yes my parents do know.




I feel like I have so much to express and I can’t express it.

I don’t know if it’s my depression holding me back, but I feel like I’m in this body, in this life and it’s not me :/


Dear _______

I know your with me so why do I keep thinking about you with her :( 
It hurts so so much :( 


I always seem to do everything wrong.